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Jun. 7th, 2010 04:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
solidfoamsoulPost twins, ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
maz_z. ILU and you're always amazing. Stay awesome.
Meanwhile,
I want to cry. Just bawl and cry b/c that's what pathetic people do.
Oh, hai, mom & dad. Yes, come bitch at me about my college not having sent my grades. That will totally help and it totally in my control. What the fucking fuck?
so I just want to cry over some bullshit petty stuff. Well, it *should* be stupid shit, but apparently I've put way too much emotional effort into it. Maybe because other human beings are attached to it and by ignoring it they're really ignoring me? And i feel like if I say anything at all about it (which is why I'm being vague right now) certain people will get mad with me, tell me I'm being selfish/petty/impatient/whatever and not only ignore me more but just stop bothering with me all together.
This totally applies in real life too.
I have such fucking problems. Christ. I hate myself.
Now I just feel like I'm pining for attention, which I probably am, so disabling comments so I can't feed my damn attention-whore-ness.
maz_z. ILU and you're always amazing. Stay awesome.Meanwhile,
I want to cry. Just bawl and cry b/c that's what pathetic people do.
Oh, hai, mom & dad. Yes, come bitch at me about my college not having sent my grades. That will totally help and it totally in my control. What the fucking fuck?
so I just want to cry over some bullshit petty stuff. Well, it *should* be stupid shit, but apparently I've put way too much emotional effort into it. Maybe because other human beings are attached to it and by ignoring it they're really ignoring me? And i feel like if I say anything at all about it (which is why I'm being vague right now) certain people will get mad with me, tell me I'm being selfish/petty/impatient/whatever and not only ignore me more but just stop bothering with me all together.
This totally applies in real life too.
I have such fucking problems. Christ. I hate myself.
Now I just feel like I'm pining for attention, which I probably am, so disabling comments so I can't feed my damn attention-whore-ness.
