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Jun. 7th, 2010 10:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
solidfoamsoulI wish my dad was dead.
I'm so tired of ... everything.
I know for a fact if he was, everyone else in this house would be 100% happier.
Or, alternatively, I wish I had a time machine so I could go back in time and prevent my mom from ever meeting him. I don't give a shit if that means me and my brother were erased from existence. I know she would be happier.
I used to worry about my mom all the time when I was a kid. She didn't have any other friends, that I knew of, besides one lady she worked with and our next door neighbor.
I hate that my dad treats her like a child and that he tell his "best friend" (who's a woman, btw) "I love you" whenever he calls her every fucking day and treats my mom like fucking shit.
The only reason my mom could give me when I point blank asked her why she didn't get a divorce was that it wasn't financially sound.
My brother and dad just had a shouting match about my car because my dad starting defending the stupid fuck he gave 700 bucks to that didn't even fix it when I got it back. (That stupid fuck is his best friend's cousin. BTW.)
I want to get out of here or I just want to die.
I am so fucking fucking fucking tired of this bullshit.
I'm so tired of ... everything.
I know for a fact if he was, everyone else in this house would be 100% happier.
Or, alternatively, I wish I had a time machine so I could go back in time and prevent my mom from ever meeting him. I don't give a shit if that means me and my brother were erased from existence. I know she would be happier.
I used to worry about my mom all the time when I was a kid. She didn't have any other friends, that I knew of, besides one lady she worked with and our next door neighbor.
I hate that my dad treats her like a child and that he tell his "best friend" (who's a woman, btw) "I love you" whenever he calls her every fucking day and treats my mom like fucking shit.
The only reason my mom could give me when I point blank asked her why she didn't get a divorce was that it wasn't financially sound.
My brother and dad just had a shouting match about my car because my dad starting defending the stupid fuck he gave 700 bucks to that didn't even fix it when I got it back. (That stupid fuck is his best friend's cousin. BTW.)
I want to get out of here or I just want to die.
I am so fucking fucking fucking tired of this bullshit.
